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சிறு வயதில்,
தேவதையின் கதை கேட்டு சோறுண்ட எனக்கு
இன்றோ,
உண்ண முடியவில்லை இந்த
தேவதையை நேரில் கண்ட பிறகு..

Onsite - Real experience

On January, My Manager assigned me a new project to be worked at Client Location in Trinidad. The project needs to be worked for a period of 6 months. I was excited on hearing this but i felt guilty for not being there for my childhood friend's marriage and my cousin's marriage. After having a number of discussions with my friends and family i decided to go Trinidad. On April 13th i reached Port of Spain, the Capital of Trinidad. Due to long travel of more than 20 hours in flight, I was fully down and was dying to take rest. After a high torture in security check, I came out with my luggage and thank god, my cab driver (Mr.Drakes) was waiting for my pick up. After 20 mins driving, the car stopped at "Russel Court", a very beautiful and highly secured apartment and i got in to the 2nd flat.. I couldn't believe myself on opening the main door.. I had a vision of my Dream house, with all facilities, Fully air conditioned, neatly arranged sofas, High tech kitchen and a warm bedroom. After taking a warm shower, I went to the kitchen to refresh myself..I remembered my friends packing some ready mix, So I prepared my dinner using that with in 2 mins and satisfied myself saying thanks to MTR and my friends..
Trinidad is a very beautiful island and holds about more than 70% of its population from Indian origin. I didn't experience any environmental change as it completely resembles India other than the culture. Infact initially i struggled a lot to adjust with them but as the days went, i found the people to be very cooperative and friendly. During the first two weeks of my stay, i didn't experience any difficulty other than my loneliness. As i am from a joint family background, I felt very hard to spend the time alone.. I started to realise the value of family and friends and how much i am bonded with them. I spent most of the time in apartment by remembering the funny moments spent with my friends and smiling alone in a beautiful apartment. I slowly learned to do all the activities on my own and also experienced the pain involved in doing that.. For me ,Still cooking remains the most difficult job to be performed :) :).. it always ends up with a mess..
Days went on like that as i got new friends in the office and started to go out for parties and beaches during the weekends but nothing filled my loneliness and nothing satisfied me like the moments which i enjoyed with my friends in my hometown. Laptop happened to be my best company in the apartment and started to spend most time in browsing and chatting with friends..Really i didn't like this way of living and started to hate the concept of working at onsite..
Everyday i used to call my parents, One fine day I called them and the voice which i heard from the other side made me to think for sure that something went wrong ..I spoke to my Mom, sis, aunt, brothers etc.. I can feel some sort of sadness filled in their voice..After a long compulsion, My sis told me the news about " the sudden demise of my cousin sister", I remembered she was blessed with a baby boy two months before..I couldn't reply anything other than tear..I felt very down as i couldn't even see her face for the last time... I used to dream about working at client location and now i felt that is useless.

Working at Client Location gives me Knowledge (Not Much), Money and exposure to outside world . These things I can list under my gains .. But missing certain events in personal life which cannot happen again is a great loss and it can't be regained ....

Poetic Love

கல்லாய் கிடந்த என்னை சிற்பியாய் செதுக்கினாய்
சிற்பம் ஆனேன் ...
மூங்கிலாய் இருந்த என்னுள் காற்றாய் நுழைந்தாய்
புல்லாங்குழல் ஆனேன் ...
கிறுகளாய் இருந்த என்னை சீர்படுத்தினாய்
ஓவியம் ஆனேன்..
வெறும் சடலமாய் இருந்த என்னுள் காதலாய் வந்தாய்
கவிஞன் ஆனேன் ! ! ! ! !

The Unrevealed Love

One of the most beautiful and unforgettable moment that every person experience in his life is "Proposing his Love to his beloved"...I would like to share with you the precious page from my personal diary..Still I remember the First Day of My College.. September 06th 2000 , I stepped in to the New Arena, Filled with Colours.. I can see my school mates.. New friends. discussing about their own departments.. Having the fear of ragging, i stepped in to the classroom very early and sat next to ranjith and ragupathy.. It was surprising me that the girls whom i didn't speak during my school days, came and spoke to me and become my close friends during the course..

I didn't find any change in my life as First 2 years got finished successfully without any arrears.. I didn't know wat happened to me in the 3rd year of my course.. Oh god.. My eyes went rolling behind the beautiful girls.. I need to be very careful at this time..I don't have the belief in "Love at First Sight" but i started to love the "First Sight" :) :) .. One of my friends showed me the group photo of hers and my eyes started to stare at a particular face in that picture... I came to know that her friend also studies in the same college but in different department.. So here comes the Adam effect ... Next day my legs started to follow her and My eyes rolled here and there to see her.. She turned down to an Angel to me..So every day i liked to see her "Smile" thrown at me wen ever she looks at me.. the days went on like that..

Suddenly the storm of Farewell came.. Four years got completed.. I didn't believe that...
Still I have not uttered a single word with her but I decided that at least I want her to know that i like her .. So a day before the farewell, i searched for the most beautiful card.. and I found a crush card which portrays my feelings.. I spent the whole night preparing myself as though i am going for a campus interview... Next day with a lots of thinking...Dressed up with a Lucky shirt .. Went to college with rajkumar accompanying me.. Oh god.. She looked like an Angel wearing the Saree and stood in front of me .. making me dumb at that time..With a naughty smile, I handed over the card to her... With a puzzle look, she starred at me and with lots of hesitation, she opened the Card...Wow!!! She smiled at my Card and said "Ur Card is Nice" ... the First and the last words spoken to me ... Unforgettable !!!!!!!!

Still I am wondering that from were i got that much guts to give her the card.. Love Makes the Man wild... of course it makes Ur life beautiful ....

Proud to be an INDIAN

This is my first blog. The word "Onsite" is not new to most of the software engineers..For me this Year started with a twist in my career.. ya my manager asked me go to Trinidad and Tobago and Chile for a period of 6 months. This made me to get confused as i am very much bonded to my family.. I tried very hard to convince my parents and after a month i heard the word OK from them..So with an excitement i confirmed my decision to my manager and the tickets were booked for me to travel on April 13th.. So now it is the time for packing up the things.. My friends R.K and Surya helped me in getting out the checklist for the packing and being the first time I troubled them a lot.. ya infact more than me they planned the things very well.. My family arrived bangalore to give me a warm support during the departure.. Still i can remember.. My MOM saying Take care with tear filled eyes.. after convincing her and my sister, Me and Surya went to the airport and the flight took off at 1.10 am and mine was a quiet safe journey but a long one .. it took more than 20 hrs to reach Port of Spain, the Capital of Trinidad..

Like all the Other Companies, My company has choosen the longest (cheapest) route to travel to Trinidad.. My journey was broken in to 3 parts... From B'lore to Paris ... Paris to St.Marteen... and St. Marteen to Barbodas to Port of Spain... On April 13th, 07.15 am, I reached the Paris Airport on the Terminal "A"... Saying bye to the b'ful co-passenger, I came out of the Plane to a Small city (They call as Airport).. Oh god.. Internal Buses, trains were operated inside the airport to travel from one terminal to another.. After finishing the Security check, I was asked to go to Terminal C..

Like a Child left alone in the elementary school, I was confused and eagerly searched for a person who can help me to reach Terminal C ..After a Long search..I heard a Voice "Hi Gentleman.. How can I help U".. Oh god.. this sentence brought smile in my face.. I asked that officer (Mr.Anderson) How to reach Terminal "C" ??? .. He asked me to be seated in a place and I waited for him.. After 10 mins, he called me and i followed him.. During the walk, we interchanged the informations about ourselves. He showed me the route and the Bus point from were i need to take up the bus.. He came along with me till I reach the Bus point and he got in to the bus along with me and he was there with me till I reached the Security check at the Terminal "C" .. So after finishing the Security check.. I was surprised that the Officer was still waiting for me to come..

I Thanked him a lot for his Timely Help.. He recieved my thanks with a bright smile and said " INDIANS are deserved to be treated as VIPs" ... with a broad smile I said "I am Proud to be an Indian"...